early/late

WOW.. I'm totally obsessed with him and I barely know him. It's so crazy. I, want him so badly. I don't even really know him. I know he is extremely corny, polite, fun, and ... just someone I can't get enough of. I've found that person. Only problem is: I want to have a good conversation with him but every time the opportunity comes.. nothing. Is it possible that maybe we just don't click? I hope not. Then again, I can't make nor force anything that isn't there.

What is love.

No idea.

I hope I find some soon.

Love seems like a pretty good pick-me-up.

As well as a good muse.

Because you know I'll do them

Blahhhhhhh... i love you :D

Another... i dont' know if he likes me, but i really like him.

and you.... can go fuck yourself... and need to understand, I'm not your fuckin doormat the end

Wishful thinking

Ok so i always knew in the back of my mind that he probably doesn't like me. I mean, it's not normal to like members of the same sex. I'm too much of a wishful thinker. I had a dream I was looking for someone last night. I was looking for my own S.O. but couldn't find them. I slept walked a little last night. Meaning my sleep was restless, but I knew that already because i woke up like 7 times plus I was thrashing.

I'm a little sad. Now that Jodaiko-ness is over. I'm not going to see some people as often as usual. Gabe said "bye keith I'll see you..........." and had to think about it and i realized "Oh no, i'm not going to see him tomorrow" Now what... I sound so obsessed but still. It make me a little sad.. a little teary.

I think too much of stuff that hasn't happened and of stuff I wish to happen. I only end up hurt. I need to lower my expectations. I need to just snap out of the thought of dating someone. I'm not one for giving up. So for now, I'm going on a break.. with myself. :'( it makes me sad

Well it's time to take a little of my own advice because I'm tired and things always feel worst when you are tired. Hopefully I'll feel better in the morning

wow

I never knew I could blush on an instant message, but I did.
I'm top class.. hehe.. I'm top class. :D :D man.. he is amazing.

wow what am i going to do when i find out he is straight.. lol damn.. i sure hope he isn't.. and that he likes me