Ok so i always knew in the back of my mind that he probably doesn't like me. I mean, it's not normal to like members of the same sex. I'm too much of a wishful thinker. I had a dream I was looking for someone last night. I was looking for my own S.O. but couldn't find them. I slept walked a little last night. Meaning my sleep was restless, but I knew that already because i woke up like 7 times plus I was thrashing.
I'm a little sad. Now that Jodaiko-ness is over. I'm not going to see some people as often as usual. Gabe said "bye keith I'll see you..........." and had to think about it and i realized "Oh no, i'm not going to see him tomorrow" Now what... I sound so obsessed but still. It make me a little sad.. a little teary.
I think too much of stuff that hasn't happened and of stuff I wish to happen. I only end up hurt. I need to lower my expectations. I need to just snap out of the thought of dating someone. I'm not one for giving up. So for now, I'm going on a break.. with myself. :'( it makes me sad
Well it's time to take a little of my own advice because I'm tired and things always feel worst when you are tired. Hopefully I'll feel better in the morning
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