sigh

wow... I'm tired of just... stuff... so, I'm not going to let it bother me :D, if you are going to act all stupid, go right ahead :D...


Maybe the sun will shine today
the clouds will blow away


:L

on another note, I'm effing POOR!!!! sigh... i get paid again tomorrow, so I'll be out of debt. I have no idea how I'm going to drive to and from San Diego today. I have to go drop off my brother's laptop to him, and he is at Camp Pendelton:D i think I'm going to make him fill my tank as like.. payment for delivering it :D.. that sounds fair right? I've been hanging out with this guy named Jordan. He is really cool and laid back. He isn't like the rest of the neighbors who are all homophobic. he he, so i shaved yesterday.. yes Ethan my "neck hair" is all gone. I have to shape my side burns though. i want to keep them but right now they are just kinda there. I NEED to go back to LB soon, at least just to visit Natalie, i miss her so much and I Wanna see her before she leaves for Florida. I think I'm just going to go for like, one day just to see her, and then drive back here. Sounds kinda stupid, but this is going to be like, the last time i see her for a very long time so i have have HAVE to go. I lost the ball on my lip ring so now i need to go and buy a new one. Yea, I'll buy it with my invisible money huh.

A long night spent with your most obvious weakness

you are everything I want, cause you are everything I'm not....

I just wanna break you down so badly!

I'm watching music videos at the moment. Oh so i started the 6Th Harry Potter book, yea, i know I'm a nerd but hey, reading is reading. I like to read, and reading is like a sign of intelligence, isn't it? So I want to change how I dress. I don't dress myself very well, and how you dress yourself has a lot to do with how you feel about yourself. If you dress yourself poorly, you come off the others as you don't care about yourself. Yea, I shouldn't care about what others think, but you know what. I need, to respect myself more. I need to just have more self esteem and confidence. I have very little, and you know what I am the one who can fix that. So with some help from Ethan :D it'll all get better. I 'm waiting for college :D Can't wait for that fresh start :D.

I can't figure out how to delete my myspace.. so I'm just going to stop checking it. Thats the easiest solution. I might check it next week for anything important... wait, what I'm I saying. Something important on myspace, yea... right. I HAVE to buy stamps. There are sooo many letters I want to write I just need money.. sigh... which i NEED!!! OK off to take a shower :D love peace and chicken grease yo.